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Occasionally I troll CL to see if any ads are seemingly real enough or intriguing enough to reply too. I've met people off CL and other internet sites over the years-But most recently I met a wonderful boy, who's just a few years younger than I, that will make a wonderful husband and father someday to a very lucky woman- that woman, however, is not me. We've been talking about 3 months now, and dating for about 2....and quite frankly, I'm extremely unhappy with him. While he has shown me that there are still chivalrous good men still out in this world, he's lacking the spontaneity that I crave. He acts like an old man 98% of the time.
I'm 23 years old and I love being out. Whether its at the movies, country club, bar, restaurants, bowling, walking in the park, or just aimlessly driving/walking around places--I love being out. My Saturdays normally consist of my friends and I doing something completely random-typiy drinking, but randomly we will either stay at their house and play video games, go bowling, go to the bars...or just walk up and down the street and goof off. Thru the week, I spend it searching for jobs, exercising with my best friend when she gets off work, and randomly doing crap for my mother, grandmother, or other friends just to occupy my time. Don't let this fool you- just because i'm jobless doesn't mean I'm not taking care of myself. I'm an independent woman, who's actually only been laid off work since the beginning of Feb and trust me- its driving me insane. But I remain positive, don't sit around 24/7 and complain about being jobless-I make an effort daily to find a job-even when the online applications keeps me inside for 2 days straight answering pointless questions that pertains nothing to what I've done, and what I know. I'm intelligent, but typiy act really ditzy around my friends simply because I love making them laugh, and being the joker. I have a passion for science, poetry, writing, astronomy, learning, exploring, and being silly as hell. What most people mistake me for is your typical "inside the box" kind of girl-and never know how to react to when suddenly I'm up for a debate on something political, religious, or controversial. I'm the kind of girl who always listens to you, gathers your ideas, concepts, and analogies, and think about them, research them---I thrive to learn as much as I possibly can. My life goal is to gain so much knowledge, that by the time I'm 80, my brain fulminates because I know to much.
Here's what I'm searching for---Id like to meet a guy or a man over the age of 21 who knows how to enjoy life. Someone who has a positive aspect, like myself- enjoys learning (no matter the age, you're never to old to learn something new); Enjoys random spontaneous outings (like we decided we want to go to dinner, and randomly take a trip up to Crowders Mtn, and enjoy the stars together afterwards.... or randomly we drive up to Blue Ridge Parkway just because "what the hell, why not"). Someone who realizes they are a wonderful person, isn't overly-cocky about it, but bluntly doesn't care what other people think of him. A guy who understands the difference between being in LOVE with someone, and just loving someone...a guy who says Thank You, when I do something nice for him, or compliments him.
Up front I want us to be friends first- because that's the most important foundation to any relationship. I'm sure in time, whatever we gather about each other, we will know if we want to take it further. I put no expectations on anyone-please just be honest, be yourself, be real about what you are looking for. Don't waste my time and I won't waste any of yours. Don't expect me to be willing to lay with you just because we've talked a few times...I'm not looking for a FWB right away...whatever you and I decide later on, whether its friendship, FWB, or a relationship- its something that'll happen in its own time.
What am I going to do about this boy I've been seeing? I'll be breaking his heart the next time he and I talk-whether or not I've found someone--because simply, I'm unhappy, and whats the point in being with someone if you are unhappy....I cannot change him, I cannot help him become more positive, I cannot force him to go out with me to my friends house on Sat nights to have fun....If he wants to sit at home and watch TV every day after work, then that's what he can do with somebody else, because do not get me wrong- I enjoy making dinner at home together, and possibly watching movies, or playing some video games together---but I'm not the kind of girl that wants to sit around every night and do this. I've wasted too many years being antisocial, weird, and being a total homebody.......and it hasn't been me for a very long time. I don't wish anything bad for him, I'm sorry I have to break his heart-but I'll never be the girl he wants/needs/desires...I'm too wild for him.....
Anyways, If you think you might be interested, please dont hesitate to respond. In the subject line, write something unique so I can rule you out from spam. Be honest about yourself and what you are looking for. I do not want this to be a long-term online email/instant messaging chat...I want this to get to the , and obviously in person.
Thanks for reading! :)