It is rather amazing, really.... w4m
the intimate thoughts we are willing to post when masked by the anonymity of the internet. I'm bruised and beaten up from my last relationship where he wanted out because "your life is too chaotic - your bathroom is cluttered, you double book your evenings, you don't wash your car and you paint colors on the wall that are screaming at me." (For the record, the color was asparagus, a bright, earth-tone green that I think is rather soothing.) A friend tried to set me up last night and I replied, "I was just broken up with because of who I am, I don't know if I am quite ready to give the trust to a relationship that it deserves." The point being, I am totally chaotic, if clutter and an over-extended social/charitable/work life is your definition of clutter. I believe each day we have the chance to give it all we've got and sometimes that means there isn't always enough time, but I would like to think that when the day is over that there are new life experiences and wonderful memories and perhaps even a little spiritual growth and reflection. I am, by society's standards, a good catch. I have had men e-mail me after parties, knowing I was taken, to just say they really enjoyed meeting me and were impressed or fascinated or entertained or enamored or whatever. But, being no fool to what really makes women attracted to men (secure jobs, the ability to provide) and men attracted to women (good looks and youth) and having no naivete at all about my own aging, I can tell you that there are two wrinkles between my brows, my hair is it's natural brunette rather than the more vivacious blond of my depending on the season, the training schedule and the number of vacations I took last month).
I suppose I am wondering if there are men out there who are mature enough that they have had their own relationship experience but yet still have the enthusiasm and hope that they did a decade or two ago. Not necessarily seeking a date, just some reassurance that there are still some really great guys out there.