Seeking
Me: 28, skinny, mixed race, single mom, work full time, own car, own place
The right kind of Man: Am I not smart enough, enough, self sufficient enough, famous enough? Do I not love enough, care enough, understand well enough? What is it about me that makes me not able to attract the right kind of man? The right kind of man The kind of man that will value me, appreciate me, love me. The kind of man that will open himself entirely up to me: his heart, mind, body. The kind of man who knows who he is, what he wants and where he wants to go with me. The kind of man who loves himself enough, that in a world of pimps and prostitutes, stands above the rest, not fooled by a sea of endless women and their search for temporary comfort. The kind of man who understands boundaries, respects well established relationship norms, thinks about you and only you. The kind of man who doesnt wonder what his ex is doing but wonders how Im doing. The kind of man who wants to make other women jealous by focusing solely on me. The kind of man who cant wait to say good morning to me when I wake up and good night when I go to bed. The kind of man who cant wait to see me again, hold my hand, feel the touch of my kiss on his soft lips. The kind of man who cant wait for me to hold him when hes sad, talk at me when hes mad, or make passionate love to me when hes glad. The kind of man who laughs at my dumb jokes, rolls his eyes at others or for even the most brief of moments, staring in amazement and grinning from ear to ear, wonders how he could ever get so lucky? The kind of man who tucks my four year old in at night as if his own, kissing my little one on the forehead, and softly replying, I love you too. The kind of man who lives to laugh and laughs to live. The kind of man who dares to love and trust again. Does the right kind of man exist? Am I just broken, unable to be fixed. Will I forever be swallowed up by the seemingly never ending darkness around me; crying, hoping, waiting, neigh desperately begging just to have the right kind of man?