Stars~n~thoughts...
I found this so I am writing this knowing you'll never read it, but hey who knows right? Mmm, well, we've had many missed connections but this one for sure tops them all. "I've thrown you the obvious and you flew with it," was a great choice of word by our dearest Maynard, I know for certainty that you do not want me as a girlfriend and that we will never amount to anything more than casual fwb. I don't know if I can handle being just your friend. It's to hard to think about the possibility of someone else, let alone if you were too.. I don't even want to say or type it. I am so about you P! I'm of what I have and how it's affected my life to a point where I make such complicated decisions as to who I'm with and what I do. i watch you when you're not looking, you are so beautiful its unreal, the way your lips move when you speak, the way your hands do all that work and so strong and big they are, i feel little next to you, i feel so when you look at me with your green blue eyes, your hair, i love smelling and feeling your hair run beneath my fingers like a fin in water, your broad chest to go with that ! oh god you are so well made, its like you are not from this planet. you are the only man i see. i wish you'd let go and fall for me and be a hole soul together, but you dont touch me like you want to, you keep saying friends, and yet you treat me way way better than anyone ive ever known. But its years man since I've felt someone's lips upon my pleasures, I cry inside when you kiss me so fiercly, when we are on your couch and you take me into your mouth of fuck man I know you'd give some really good pleasures. But I know that that'll never happen. I know that it's just sex and it shouldn't matter, but damn if only you knew the enthrallment of what a hot heavy breath and wet mouth can do to a girl down there. I want so much to keep you as my friend, but I don't want to hold you back either. You have such an amazing ! i don't want to be selfish and keep wanting someone who doesn't want me. i don't want to put that pressure of on you either. I know you have a clean and life and want to pursue your dreams with you shop, so I want to wish you the best of luck. It's been such an amazing experience knowing you, but I love you to much and don't want you to risk it anymore..