Understanding.
Worse things have happened to better people and I have a soft heart for all mankind, but i'm my own mind, I feel selfish and self-serving for even taking the time to write this. Please forgive me. I have never been more worse-for-wear when it comes to meet somebody, a nice girl/lady, at this point in time. I know what I want, I think. But developing the ability to ascertain and "close" the deal is a mindset which is now long-lost on me. I feel hopeless, I don't what to say to those I meet, even though i'm telling the truth, being honest and open-minded. is a bad thing, it happens to us all but I am honestly and openly dumbfounded by the fact that it seems like housewives looking sex Bison Kansas I am cryptonite or a "pariah" of sorts to any potential on-lookers, no matter how appealing my words are, my (yes, as shallow as one's perspective might seem, this is true) seems to further widen the gap between myself and any hope of future happiness. I'm a good looking guy, other's opinions of course, i'm not**** arrogant. I live on my own, I pay my bills, provide for myself and my pets and am 2 years past a divorced situation. Sure, i'm overweight, i'm also friendly, thought provoking, spontaneous, funny, caring and I have a very giving nature. Do looks, in other's opinions, really outweight the great qualities one has within? Is that what i'm facing, out there, today? Am I wasting my time? Should I just give up and myself to soap operas and random sites to make up for my lost social connection with the opposite sex? Tell me what i'm supposed to do. For the love of God, please tell me there's hope. I''m only 38, I went from being a believer just 5 short years ago to wondering "is that it?"? I'm not asking for a life saver, i'm asking for a life-sharer. Tag. I hope you're it.